Staaayyyyyy Whereee Youuu Areeee

That song is friggen driving me crazy. get it..?Driving?  Fail Pun? or whatever that just was? Shut up?

Awesome day out today, Pool Tourney was what it lived up to be, next time i will not settle for 2nd place. >:D
My experiences with bus's aren't particularly "cool" to say the least. "To Willeton please!" But today I did myself proud and took a bus from a unfamiliar place to another unfamiliar place.

The whole trip, so many thoughts going through my mind. So many scenarios and ''worst possible outcomes'' but at the end of the day i managed to find my way back home and so decided to play a little trick on the ones who doubted my abilities, but deep down were "genuinely worried" about me.

So parents are coming home tomorrow... seems like they never left, I've had so much fun being a "nomad". Great Hospitality over the past few days thanks friends.

> I'm coming for you! prepare to be surpassed  >: /

> Come back already : (

> A loser can still have a winning SMILE : D

> I won't let you slip away...

Want to be a rock star?

Afer comming out of the AC/DC exhibition today I was inspired, a little bit dazed and feeling a little bit more confident. Angus Young the lead guitarist.. what a legend, he has facemelting skill, charisma and passion. Some day I want to be like him. Typical Alpha Male ;)

Transition

Group mechanics - social exchange of emotion -
The "vibe" is a series of pings, pangs and pongs of emotions and feelings.
We respect most those who contribute a postive vibe, a dominant vibe.
Those who don't know how to be involved postively send out a negative vibe to compensate(,insults, shoutouts and repetitive remarks).
And those unable to keep up with the pings and pongs are left out, they are the "outcasts and losers" who contribute nothing.

It is like a drag race between the wannabes, fighting for the spotlight and laughs. The losers being the fuel and the heart of leaders is their destination.
Notice there is always the slick leader sending out perfectly timed "rewards and punishments" to bait and lead the followers. The sacrifice to lead is sometimes acting cold and selfish.

But who would deny the returns?

Fly me home under your wings baby wings baby wings baby.

<3 - actually had one of the best days with you, your hugs and kisses made me feel so safe and even though ive only known you for sucha short time its amazing and really scary how much we have in common except for foood. haha. i dont care about anything that could change it but thats all a world away from me, the feelings ive developed are fighting away from all the other things, and are winning. i can not wait to see you again. :)

why angry birds make sense to me

When shit goes down in Angry Birds you know it was comming.
The Pigs are evil and they know it and the Birds are pissed and they know it.

Some "PEOPLE" are a different story!
What happened to them when they were a child? I dont know.
If they grew up with a roof on their head and food on the table then they should act like they lead a good life.
I know poor people, who cant afford trendy clothes or bullshit like internet or cameras, and they live happy and content lives. SO WHY CANT YOU??

You need bullshit gratification from collegues, teachers and pieces of paper to feel good. Get a life!

Back to the start.
If you only care about yourself then ONLY ever care about yourself.
Don't turn around and slap your image in the face by suddenly changing behind closed doors.

I know I don't lead anything near a perfect life but, judge me if you will but I wish not to conform to lifes depressing nature.

Calvin Khor Out

Everybody pay attention to me, I got the answer!

So just got back my first Asian party, mixed feelings.
Social Interactions can be very funny/ interesting sometimes.
You know when people just don't belong sometimes, plain and simple.
Even though it was a kinda of fail party, its always good socializing with your friends as a whole group, and i guess there were some fun aspects to it.
When awkward relationships from two of your friends are broken, it just so much better... the wall has been broken,  RESPECT TO YOU BRO (y)

Love, Peace and Justice

No need for me to write, I just gotta picture her smiling.

the daily life: just did cross country got somewhere close to like top ten :) yeah today was really good. No parents for the whole 2 weeks of the holidays (except dad will be checking in every few days) going to be so awesome :)

> hereee ;)


> im so confused about you, its just....


> WUDHALWKDJAWIDJOAIWJDAWKDJAWIDJALKF HOLI-FUCKING-DAYS! <3

tension is measured in time not newtons

The urgent need to blog because everyone else is.. The tension going on grips me it does but i try to act like i don't care. Then again how can I care when there is no need to, I don't need to feel worry or grief because of what people say to each other or how people are treated. Its too much trouble to care about others all the time and sometimes focusing on your own goals and challenges is a nice change.

Call me ignorant because of that but face the reality, that if i never hear then I will never know. Seems like a terms worth of study, stress, anxiety and conflict are all occcuring on the last 2 weeks of term. Im ok with that. Honestly I am, im more mature now believe it or not. I realise now that in the past I have purposely made myself fail in order to differentiate myself from the human race and give me a false sense of security. I need that hit of security, when I unconsciously pursuade myself to fail, to feel strong and independant. This feeling made up for the lack of my strength and independance.

I loved the feeling of certainty, and I aim for the same feeling in everything I do, the certainty that I was an idiot.. and i probably still am an idiot but at least now im aware of it. This is probably what Adam is refering to. "Year 12 is a test to see how well you handle what is thrown at you." - guest speaker from day one of hell.